iron mountain, mi

156 nights since I saw that light.  156 nights I haven't slept.  I nap some during the day, but that's a whole nother thing ever since I moved back in with my folks, cuz whenever I sleep during the day, they think I'm depressed.  I'll get my own place once the divorce is finalized and I'm back on my feet, but I just don't know when that'll be.  In the meantime, I told them I signed up for a pottery class in Quinnesec.  They're thrilled I'm "pursuing my interests" and "meeting new people."  What I'm actually doing is sleeping in my car in the Applebee's parking lot until the sun goes down.
 
I'm not sure what I'm afraid of, but I snap awake in a blind panic as soon as it gets dark.  I've tried everything.  I even went to my ex's one night thinking maybe I could sleep if I was with him, but he asked me to leave after.  Said it would be weird if we woke up together.  Anyways, I'm sorry to bother you.  I don't know what the light was, but I was just so glad to find your site.  I'd been figuring I probably imagined it.  Please, anyone who knows or thinks they know what it was, please write about it.  I'm so tired.